
Compared to chemistry, for which I need to remember arbitrary constants to convert between non-sensible units and refer to millions of tables, math, as of right now, is intuitive. I like math because it is simple and grounding.

I seek instant gratification to distract me from stress. There is always the next appointment and the next assignment to procrastinate on. To really just sit in the moment is something I do not get to do at Exeter a lot. Thus, one learns slowly to appreciate its strangeness and accept the tragedy and the ‘unfinished’ story as final. It forces me to sit in a state of dissatisfaction and unsettledness. Its absence subverts our expectations and definition of a good story. In Eva’s case, the non-conclusive, unsatisfactory ‘ending’ actually fits pretty well with the show’s theme of depression.

From the disturbing, metaphysical ending to the original 1995 anime and the endless number of remakes released throughout the years, each ending presents some new twists but never a believable resolution. It reminds me of Neon Genesis Evangelion-another absolute classic in the anime community-which also had a messy ending. The ending of Berserk has been a ticking sadness that I would like to sit with once in a while. Since when did I start measuring the value of everything in my life through grades? My brain is telling me that I would trade all my memory of Berserk with receiving five As for upper spring. How much did Berserk matter to me? Probably not that much. Just as everything is turning for the better, and Guts, the main character, is learning to trust his traveling companion again, the story ends.ģ64 chapters and 8400 plus pages of art. To me, the story of Berserk is about finding a reason for living and the strength to carry on despite continuous hardships. I first encountered the story of Berserk from the 1997 anime series last summer and continued to finish the rest of the manga content not included in the anime. However, to most fans, Berserk will never be the same ever again. Berserk continues to be published by Studio Gaga and Miura’s friend Kouji Mori.

Less than a year ago, due to its author Kentaro Miura’s sudden death, the long-running and highly regarded manga Berserk ended abruptly without a proper ending.
